As I uploaded my most recent works the other day, it occurred to me that it had been quite a few months since I last did anything artful. I am angered by this of course, and even more frustrated in the knowledge that I will have considerably less time in the near future to work on my art. You see, I got pregnant... yes, pregnant. I wasn't really ready yet; hoped to be that way, but maybe five years from now? I don't know about most women's experiences with pregnancy, but mine has been far from pleasant. I've been to the ER three times for fluids and drugs, and so weak I could barely stand. That was all just within the first three months! Since then, I've been getting better. Sadly though, while my body slowly improves, my mental state is going the other way. I am now just two and a half months away from the end of the waddling; constant trips to the restroom; hot flashes in 90+ degree weather; the always dead tired. With the release from my bondage, I will then have a small helpless being to care for and keep me busy. Things will be different from now on. Gone are the days when I will do whatever I want whenever I want.
On a different note, here come the days when a person will look at me and think that I am the whole world. When I will be a superhero and the best mom on the planet. When I can cure any illness or injury with just a kiss and hug. I will watch and shape a little life to be ready for the rigors of this world. It will be an experience unlike anything I will ever have on this earth. So as my art takes a back seat for a while, my new project begins. To be sure there will still moments for me to dabble in my art and writing, but it will be a while before I can actively return to my hobbies.